Courage to be me

After three weeks of no poo...just using a baking soda and water to wash with an apple cider vinegar rinse, I am wanting to use shampoo.

I don't know why, really.

I guess I'm trying to figure out what my next move will be concerning my hair.
After that horrible reaction last time in the salon when I had it highlighted and dyed, I don't think
I should ever dye it again. I'm scared. Not being able to breath and getting dizzy is very scary.
Having to take prednisone and my inhaler for two days later was also scary.

Is it worth it to go through the fear? I've been reading some scary things about the
chemicals in hair dye and how many people have had adverse, even life-threatening and life-ending
experiences. I don't want that to happen to me.

How important is it to have blonde hair? I feel like it compliments me and looks pretty, but I
also sometimes feel frustrated by the cost, time, and toxicity of the process...all in the name of
vanity. It's certainly not consistent with my spiritual beliefs or the other facets of my life:
yoga, clean eating, natural childbirth and child-rearing, natural and homeopathic healing.

Hair dye.

It just doesn't seem to fit.

I will meditate and pray for the strength to figure out a natural, less toxic solution or to be brave enough to let my natural color grow out.