Yesterday I was informed that a person who was very special to me passed away on Monday. This was completely unexpected. I have not experienced a loss this close in a long time.
Last night was torture. I tried to sleep, but I think I woke-up just about every hour on the hour thinking about her; trying to adjust to the fact that she left so suddenly.
Today, I felt like I was wondering in a daze, going through the motions. The warm weather of 78 degrees in October only added to my feeling of overall discomfort. I want these days ahead to pass quickly.
This evening, I don't know if I have it in me to properly prepare something for tomorrow's memorial. Basically, I'm still in shock and my brain feels too cloudy and cluttered.
So, just in case I don't get to say what I need to tomorrow...
You will be missed